Past and Present

I have read some of my old posts which is good because it reminds you of where you were and teaches you that somethings never change. In Feb 2010, I missed my girls and now in April of 2011 I still miss them, this will never change, although I am so proud of who they have become and I seriously would not want them to come back and live with me forever. Being a successful parent means raising them to be able to take on this world and life and not only survive but thrive and that is what they are doing. Although I will always be here for them if needed and I miss the old times together alot, I know there will be new ones too. I have so much to do now, horses, chickens, dogs, sewing and scrapbooking. Oh and of course work...ugh wish I could get rid of that last one some how. Maybe I should start playing the lottery. Its unbelievable to me that my 47 years has been so blessed ( and has gone by so quickly...I don't feel this old), my life started out blessed and had some very big bumps in the road at times and even some giant craters but it has made me strong. There are alot of things in life that makes us strong. Each of us has different experiences and different roads to travel and they each make us different. One is no less important or special than the other. We have down times and up times, times where we wish we could go to bed and never get up and times where we are so happy and having so much fun we wish it would never end. Times where we feel like we can conquer the world and times where we really don't want to do anything. But through it all we have each other and love. Not just the love and companionship of one person but of many each relationship being special and different and they are needed in our lives. I am so thankful for my husband of course he is the most important and we have been through sooooo much together. Not only on a personal level but as business partners. Then there is my family, from my grandparents, parents, step parents, sister, aunts and uncles and cousins and of course the many friends over the years I have great memories and have enjoyed and need each of you. God has blessed me so much. Remember to stop and look around you, try to be selfless, give and love others its what makes you feel good (ok thats alittle selfish) but, the love of others is what makes us feel whole. Just random thoughts today.