So, bought the old guy some St. Johns Wort and had a good conversation with him. It's hard running that business and its not alot of fun all the time being the ultimate decision maker and having to juggle the whole mess. Sometimes you don't know if the decisions are right you just have to do it and hope it works out. He has a hard time letting things roll off his back and lets little stuff ruin his day. Hope the vitamins help and he try harder not to let things get to him.
Life is short and the petty everyday things in life don't really matter.
Have a great week all.....off to dallas with the old guys!!! lol
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Traveling and Life
So I'm still enjoying my new job and the traveling is good. Things at home are well status quo. Do you ever just wish you could just hit your other 1/2 over the head and make them wake up? I'm not sure what to do anymore, seems like I do all the trying and he does everything he can to block me out. Does he think this is good? I don't know what he's thinking, I just want to have a friendship and someone who cares and is interested in things I like, is that to much to ask? Oh well, just venting.
Seems like as we reflect on life and the older I get that I realize more and more how short life is and we can't keep saying some day I will do this or that because I have been saying that for 45 years, not sure I'll get 45 more to get it done, not even promised tomorrow.
Just want love and happiness in my life. Sorry kinda depressing, I'll snap out of it in a few days.
Seems like as we reflect on life and the older I get that I realize more and more how short life is and we can't keep saying some day I will do this or that because I have been saying that for 45 years, not sure I'll get 45 more to get it done, not even promised tomorrow.
Just want love and happiness in my life. Sorry kinda depressing, I'll snap out of it in a few days.
Friday, September 4, 2009
How quickly life changes
It has been awhile since I have posted and boy have things changed. I no longer work in the business that I helped my husband build. I am now working as a Territory Manager for a large carpet manufacturer and I travel alot. I am really enjoying it and I am looking forward to the challenge of it all. Its just wierd after spending 13 years putting your heart and soul into something to just walk away and no longer be involved. It has been somewhat lonesome.
But, on the other hand I love what I am doing now, change is good and I have a great opportunity to be very successful in my current position.
Lily my little pomeranian is doing great and seems to be in remission each day I watch for signs of a relapse because it can change so quickly but, for now she is a sweet energetic baby.
My aunt has been in a hospital due to inappropriate care in a nursing home so she is being moved to a home closer to her sister (my mother). I am thankful for that she seems to be very distant and lonely. I don't think she had much company in the past but, we intend to try and change that my mom will visit her regularly and I will do my best to also visit often. I hope she comes out of it and becomes more social and can enjoy the rest of her life.
We should all remember our loved ones and remember to not let life keep us so busy with the things that won't matter in the end. We MUST spend time doing the things that will matter.
But, on the other hand I love what I am doing now, change is good and I have a great opportunity to be very successful in my current position.
Lily my little pomeranian is doing great and seems to be in remission each day I watch for signs of a relapse because it can change so quickly but, for now she is a sweet energetic baby.
My aunt has been in a hospital due to inappropriate care in a nursing home so she is being moved to a home closer to her sister (my mother). I am thankful for that she seems to be very distant and lonely. I don't think she had much company in the past but, we intend to try and change that my mom will visit her regularly and I will do my best to also visit often. I hope she comes out of it and becomes more social and can enjoy the rest of her life.
We should all remember our loved ones and remember to not let life keep us so busy with the things that won't matter in the end. We MUST spend time doing the things that will matter.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Life, Love and the Pursuit of Happiness
Life-it never turns out like we think it will when we are 17, 25, 30 we always think things will be different that they end up. I'm not always saying they end up bad just different than we would have chosen had God said come over here Shelley and I want you to go through this questionaire and pick what you want for your life and you will get it. That actually is kinda of a frightening thought because we would have chosen, wealth, bueaty, love, to be able to eat everything and never gain a pound, to we wealthy with out working, to have a mate that just poured affection on us no stop. Is that really what we would want would we be content? NO!!! Life is about living it!!! Not knowing what is coming next but knowing that whatever it is that God will see us through it as long as we hold on tight and sometimes we have to hold on with all our might. Faith is what we learn, we become better people because of it, we love deeper, appreciate more, we become less shallow.
Love-is a choice not a feeling. In the midst of it all when you really don't like, agree with or even want to look at the one you love you have to choose to keep loving them. It gets easier over time and before you know it the love is deeper than you ever thought possible. To have all the love from family and friends is irreplaceable.
Happiness-it is also a choice, we have to choose to be happy in the moment. The bible tells us to praise Him even in the worst of times....UGH...who wants to praise Him and thank Him when life is sucking or when someone you love is hurting or when your facing your worst nightmare. I have learned to do this over the years, I have made a intentional effort to thank God when I'm not happy or when I feel like things are coming unwound, or when I am terrible stressed. And in doing this I have become more relaxed, less stressed because I know that if I thank God for the lessons I'm going to learn or for the trials I will overcome that He will not only see me through but pour His grace down on me.
Life is not about what we want it is about how we choose to react to and face it.
Just had this on my heart today wanted to share. If your having a hard time seeing God today stop and look at nature and you will see God. He is always there.
Love-is a choice not a feeling. In the midst of it all when you really don't like, agree with or even want to look at the one you love you have to choose to keep loving them. It gets easier over time and before you know it the love is deeper than you ever thought possible. To have all the love from family and friends is irreplaceable.
Happiness-it is also a choice, we have to choose to be happy in the moment. The bible tells us to praise Him even in the worst of times....UGH...who wants to praise Him and thank Him when life is sucking or when someone you love is hurting or when your facing your worst nightmare. I have learned to do this over the years, I have made a intentional effort to thank God when I'm not happy or when I feel like things are coming unwound, or when I am terrible stressed. And in doing this I have become more relaxed, less stressed because I know that if I thank God for the lessons I'm going to learn or for the trials I will overcome that He will not only see me through but pour His grace down on me.
Life is not about what we want it is about how we choose to react to and face it.
Just had this on my heart today wanted to share. If your having a hard time seeing God today stop and look at nature and you will see God. He is always there.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Not Sleeping
So, Lily is doing better, still staggering alot and falling but, she is much better than a week ago. She still does not sleep all night she got me up 2 times last night which is better than 6 a few nights before.
I'm ready for a day off from people....I sometimes can recharge by just packing up all my stuff going home and working, sewing, napping whatever but I'm usually pretty productive. When I do this I don't answer phones, I just check in once or twice a day and I can do whatever it is that needs done uninterrupted. Its really nice, to not be at everyone's beck and call. I think tomorrow I may do this if not I will definately do it soon. I'm tired and I haven't felt well today, hope I'm not catching something. There are alot of things going around. Its 11 pm and I'm still awake, wierd friday I was in bed at 7:30pm and by 9 or 10 all weekend then tonight when I should be in bed early...can't sleep. I think I dread trying to sleep now because I know Lily will have me up soon anyway. Ok so I am rambling....bored...tired...? I'm not sure....I wish I was at the lake relaxing....hope to go this weekend.
I'm ready for a day off from people....I sometimes can recharge by just packing up all my stuff going home and working, sewing, napping whatever but I'm usually pretty productive. When I do this I don't answer phones, I just check in once or twice a day and I can do whatever it is that needs done uninterrupted. Its really nice, to not be at everyone's beck and call. I think tomorrow I may do this if not I will definately do it soon. I'm tired and I haven't felt well today, hope I'm not catching something. There are alot of things going around. Its 11 pm and I'm still awake, wierd friday I was in bed at 7:30pm and by 9 or 10 all weekend then tonight when I should be in bed early...can't sleep. I think I dread trying to sleep now because I know Lily will have me up soon anyway. Ok so I am rambling....bored...tired...? I'm not sure....I wish I was at the lake relaxing....hope to go this weekend.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Learning from Lily
This evening I sit here and thank God that I don't easily give into what others may have done when it comes to my little dog Lily. You see GME is typically seen as a death sentence whether now or somewhere in the next 6-12 months. But like many of you know I have found a nuerologist in Boston who is going to manage Lily's case and has had many full remissions and cures after 12 months. I must remember that she may not be one of those but I am learning from her that there is hope.
So I ask myself tonight what have I learned or am I learning from this experience? Because I believe not matter how big or small we have something to learn from every trial in our lives. This little 5 lb dog has wagged her tail through this whole ordeal, when she couldn't move any other part of her body she would wag her tell to let you know she had not given up. WOW!! a small animal that doesn't even understand what is happening does not give up.
I find that very interesting considering people who do understand what is happening to them or others in different circumstances often settle for what is happening or in many cases give up...throw there hands in the air and say "I can't", or "this is my excuse". I know there are many people who have Lily's will and heart to not let things get them down but on the other hand there are alot that do.
Even with our nation and our current economic crisis...we here on the news all the time how bad it is and all the negative but do we ever hear or see the positive? The things that are happening to stablize? Or the people who are learning from this experience and the quality of life that will be better due to the lessons they will learn from over indulgence?
Lily teaches me a lot, how to love unconditionally, how to forgive, how to never give up. She is special, she loves everyone, there is never a person that comes through the door that she does not want to meet and love on, she cares not what color their skin, how they look, their religion, their politics or if they even like her, she accepts them no matter what.
What a better world we would have if we could all love, accept and give of ourselves the way this little girl does.
I think I have alot more lessons from Lily.
So I ask myself tonight what have I learned or am I learning from this experience? Because I believe not matter how big or small we have something to learn from every trial in our lives. This little 5 lb dog has wagged her tail through this whole ordeal, when she couldn't move any other part of her body she would wag her tell to let you know she had not given up. WOW!! a small animal that doesn't even understand what is happening does not give up.
I find that very interesting considering people who do understand what is happening to them or others in different circumstances often settle for what is happening or in many cases give up...throw there hands in the air and say "I can't", or "this is my excuse". I know there are many people who have Lily's will and heart to not let things get them down but on the other hand there are alot that do.
Even with our nation and our current economic crisis...we here on the news all the time how bad it is and all the negative but do we ever hear or see the positive? The things that are happening to stablize? Or the people who are learning from this experience and the quality of life that will be better due to the lessons they will learn from over indulgence?
Lily teaches me a lot, how to love unconditionally, how to forgive, how to never give up. She is special, she loves everyone, there is never a person that comes through the door that she does not want to meet and love on, she cares not what color their skin, how they look, their religion, their politics or if they even like her, she accepts them no matter what.
What a better world we would have if we could all love, accept and give of ourselves the way this little girl does.
I think I have alot more lessons from Lily.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Updates on Lily and Life
Lily has done really well on the meds and got her sight back until about 2 days ago. She seems to be regressing. I think she only has sight out of her right eye now and it seems that her whole left side is not working properly. We go back to the specialist Tuesday. I am concerned that she may have something nuerologically wrong.
We have been busy the remodel is not done at the store yet...but on hold for a few days to get caught up on everyday work. Business seems to be slowing alittle not panicking but I do think we are feeling the recession now.
Mom is moved and I think settled. She says she is feeling alot better which is good. We still have stuff to do at the house but nothing critical.
I need to get focused and organized on bidding jobs, designing Melissa's wedding invitations (and getting them done), losing weight, cleaning my house, sewing...I miss it. Why can't we just have more time?
We went to the lake last weekend and we won't be able to go again for a few weeks but, I look forward to the calm that it gives me. I can just sit on the deck and all the anxiety I fight daily melts away. What is it about nature? The closeness to God? Realizing that the world is bigger than we are and our worries and anxieties are minimal compared to the size of the world? I don't know but I like the feeling.
We have been busy the remodel is not done at the store yet...but on hold for a few days to get caught up on everyday work. Business seems to be slowing alittle not panicking but I do think we are feeling the recession now.
Mom is moved and I think settled. She says she is feeling alot better which is good. We still have stuff to do at the house but nothing critical.
I need to get focused and organized on bidding jobs, designing Melissa's wedding invitations (and getting them done), losing weight, cleaning my house, sewing...I miss it. Why can't we just have more time?
We went to the lake last weekend and we won't be able to go again for a few weeks but, I look forward to the calm that it gives me. I can just sit on the deck and all the anxiety I fight daily melts away. What is it about nature? The closeness to God? Realizing that the world is bigger than we are and our worries and anxieties are minimal compared to the size of the world? I don't know but I like the feeling.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Lily
Lily has been on the meds for a week now and although the eyes themself seem to look better she still has no sight.
She is beginning to adapt to the blindness and is trying to wander around and find her way. I am afraid she will not see again, it is so sad because out of 3 pomeranians we have had she has had the best personality and it seems like part of her personality is gone. I hope that if she stays blind that as she adapts that she will regain her playful, funloving personality. She is so sweet and lets me put all her eye drops in easily which is 9 a day. She sleeps alot which must be a side effect from the pills (4 pills 3 times a day). She has learned to bark when she can't find her way or wants something so, she is more spoiled than ever and she is definately the boss. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers. I tell her everyday that I am sorry she can't see and that I am doing all I know to do to help her. I feel so sorry for her because its hard to know if she understand what is happening too her. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers.
She is beginning to adapt to the blindness and is trying to wander around and find her way. I am afraid she will not see again, it is so sad because out of 3 pomeranians we have had she has had the best personality and it seems like part of her personality is gone. I hope that if she stays blind that as she adapts that she will regain her playful, funloving personality. She is so sweet and lets me put all her eye drops in easily which is 9 a day. She sleeps alot which must be a side effect from the pills (4 pills 3 times a day). She has learned to bark when she can't find her way or wants something so, she is more spoiled than ever and she is definately the boss. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers. I tell her everyday that I am sorry she can't see and that I am doing all I know to do to help her. I feel so sorry for her because its hard to know if she understand what is happening too her. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Update on Lily
The Animal Eye specialist says she may have Optic Nuerosis and has prescriped her 8 different medications. Oh boy do I have a pill schedule or what!!! He says if she responds to the meds she may regain her sight!!! HOORAY!!! There is hope. There is alway hope!!!
Lily is teaching me and all of us something in this time of darkness. Don't give up, keep going there is always hope around the corner. I have had 4 vets that were not very optimistic and one that encouraged me to got to this eye specialist or OSU and now there is hope. They say the sooner it is treated the more chance you have of regaining the sight.
So remember when everyone is negative, keep looking for the positive, don't give up, hope is right around the corner.
Lily is teaching me and all of us something in this time of darkness. Don't give up, keep going there is always hope around the corner. I have had 4 vets that were not very optimistic and one that encouraged me to got to this eye specialist or OSU and now there is hope. They say the sooner it is treated the more chance you have of regaining the sight.
So remember when everyone is negative, keep looking for the positive, don't give up, hope is right around the corner.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Lily
I named her Lily because I wanted a bueatiful, sweet name for my pomeranian puppy. She is bueatiful and has been such a bright addition to our family. Everyone who meets her falls in love with her instantly. She is bubbly, loving and playful. No one is a stranger and she loves every creature from little cats, large dogs to small children. She makes friends with everyone even our UPS guy takes a second out of his rushed day to find her and greet her.
Why am I blogging about her? On Saturday (Valentines Day) she suddenly went blind. My playful little pup became, lost in the darkness, she is scared and has only in the last day or so begun to try and figure things out, although she is cautious and still very afraid.
I have talked to 5 vets we have had blood work, urine and fecal tests run, eye tests for pressure and others run and no one can find anything wrong. One vet said she is the healthiest sick dog they have ever seen. Through alot of pushing we now have a appointment with an Animal Opthamologist tomorrow and if that doesn't work we may be going to OSU to the school. I have read online that if treated quickly there is a chance of reversing the blindness or at least getting partial sight.
You may ask "Is she crazy?" and some may say "It's just a dog." That is not so, she is like a child to me and I will do what it takes to care for her. She loves me unconditionally and shouldn't I do the same for her?
I have encountered a staff member at one vet who just thought I was being rediculous for not wanting to leave her in one of there pens until the vet could see her. Well would you leave your child who was shaking and scared and had no idea what was happening to her? I told the lady my office is a mile from here call me and I'll be here in 3 minutes when the vet can see her. This lady was rude and well all I can say is she has no business working in a vet office. I can't imagine that she even like animals.
So I have been on an emotional drain these last couple of days. My heart breaks for this tiny girl. Love is not chosen it chooses you well Love has chosen me through this little baby and my heart breaks each time I see her quivering in fear or bumping into things she doesn't know is there.
I will keep everyone posted. If your the praying kind well God takes care of the birds of the field so I think He will listen to prayers about this little baby. She has been my stress relief and probably saved years on my life. Please pray that she will regain her sight and if not that she will adapt and become the playful little pup she once was.
Why am I blogging about her? On Saturday (Valentines Day) she suddenly went blind. My playful little pup became, lost in the darkness, she is scared and has only in the last day or so begun to try and figure things out, although she is cautious and still very afraid.
I have talked to 5 vets we have had blood work, urine and fecal tests run, eye tests for pressure and others run and no one can find anything wrong. One vet said she is the healthiest sick dog they have ever seen. Through alot of pushing we now have a appointment with an Animal Opthamologist tomorrow and if that doesn't work we may be going to OSU to the school. I have read online that if treated quickly there is a chance of reversing the blindness or at least getting partial sight.
You may ask "Is she crazy?" and some may say "It's just a dog." That is not so, she is like a child to me and I will do what it takes to care for her. She loves me unconditionally and shouldn't I do the same for her?
I have encountered a staff member at one vet who just thought I was being rediculous for not wanting to leave her in one of there pens until the vet could see her. Well would you leave your child who was shaking and scared and had no idea what was happening to her? I told the lady my office is a mile from here call me and I'll be here in 3 minutes when the vet can see her. This lady was rude and well all I can say is she has no business working in a vet office. I can't imagine that she even like animals.
So I have been on an emotional drain these last couple of days. My heart breaks for this tiny girl. Love is not chosen it chooses you well Love has chosen me through this little baby and my heart breaks each time I see her quivering in fear or bumping into things she doesn't know is there.
I will keep everyone posted. If your the praying kind well God takes care of the birds of the field so I think He will listen to prayers about this little baby. She has been my stress relief and probably saved years on my life. Please pray that she will regain her sight and if not that she will adapt and become the playful little pup she once was.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
A New Year
Its a new year. Atually one month is already almost gone. Wow!!! Life flies by fast. This year will be a big year....there is so much hope in the air with our new President. Although they say the economy is the worst its ever been since WWII we are still a people who will get through it and hopefully it will remind us all that we do not need all the excess in our lives. I think alot of the economy problems are caused by the media and it becomes very much about what people think.
This year my oldest will get married. Thats so hard to imagine. I think it was just yesterday that she ran around in a diaper with crazy curly hair. Now she has grown up to be a beautiful young woman on the inside as well as the outside. God has blessed my with two beautiful and wonderful daughters.
This year I hope to lose weight, become more compassionate to others, do what matters most and live each day remembering that we are not promised tomorrow. How about you what do you want for the new year?
This year my oldest will get married. Thats so hard to imagine. I think it was just yesterday that she ran around in a diaper with crazy curly hair. Now she has grown up to be a beautiful young woman on the inside as well as the outside. God has blessed my with two beautiful and wonderful daughters.
This year I hope to lose weight, become more compassionate to others, do what matters most and live each day remembering that we are not promised tomorrow. How about you what do you want for the new year?
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