Wow I see that my last post was about my Dad a few days after losing him. I miss him and at times, it is as intense as the day he left us. But Time Marches On....
I will be a Grandma in Feb 2015...wow...never thought I would be this old or that my girls would be old enough to be momma's. Melissa will be a great mom and so will Kaela someday. Although things never turn out like you imagine and your dreams for the future are never quite what you thought they'd be.....life is good. We also lost both Mark's parents in 2012 so it hurts to know that these three key people in our lives will not get the chance to be great grandparents to this new baby. I do know they would have been very excited and happy. Melissa and Patrick will do a great job and really don't need any of us to help them. We already did our job so I guess now its their turn.
There have been many other losses of celebrities in the media recently, one that was very impactful was the loss of Robin Williams...who took his own life. Why does someone do this? Someone who seems so full of life? We recently lost someone in the flooring business who also felt this was his only option. He was someone who was full of life and seemed to be so happy all the time too. It is just sad that someone could get to a point in this world that they think suicide is the only solution. That a person feels that have failed in someway or let someone down in someway that its unforgivable and there is no way past it. Or that they are no longer as wonderful, young or smart as they once were. What has our world come to? How do we cope when things get rough? How do we lose our hope? Its tough...I know I have been depressed at times to the point of wishing I didn't have to get out of bed but eventually I get up and face another day because it is the only choice we should even consider. God is the only one who should have a say in when we leave this earth...until then we suffer thru it and enjoy the bright days, there will always be some mixed in with the dark ones even when it seems the dark ones are drastically out numbering the bright days. I choose to march on with time and thru it to see what will happen next, I mean its time for some great things like grandkids and fun Christmas's again.
I turned 50 this year and it has been more difficult than any other age....I think more about how little time we have...even if we live to be old it goes by so fast. We start out with so many dreams for the future and think we have so much time for these dreams to come true. Its been hard to dream of anything over the last 3 years, I must admit it has been a very depressing and trying time. It has definitely changed me.
Enough doom and gloom...I'm so old and depressed sounding!!!
Lets talk fun stuff...like quilting!!!
I have made my first queen size quilt...I have found this(sewing) as a therapy of sorts. I spend alot of time thinking and sorting things out. I figured out its not as easy as it looks!!! But I got it done and its not to bad...a few errors here and there but the next one will be better.
Its funny how I once was a very outgoing, people person. I loved going and being with a crowd of people. At times I miss doing more and being more outgoing but most of the time I would rather stay home and cook, clean, garden or sew,....the hermit life looks pretty appealing at times. LOL....well enough for now...got lots of things to say and share....there is alway something Heavy on My Heart. Take care and love each other.
