Do you ever feel like you take care of and do everything for everyone? Who takes care of you? I have generalized anxiety disorder and panic attacks according to the medical profession but, could it just be that to many people expect to much from me instead of taking on the task or responsibility themselves they rely on me to do it for them? And when it is not done to their satisfaction I am to blame. So I stress and try to do to much only to do nothing well. As I get older it gets harder to juggle. And of course the next question is have I allowed it? Am I contributing to the craziness by always doing it for them? I know I am a people pleaser and sometimes I just do things to keep the peace rather than deal with the fallout. My sister told me I was the bossy one....I don't really think thats true I think I have been the boss so that things get done, planned and taken care of so that it eliminates others stress, frustration or anger with the situation just make everyone happy. I don't want to be that person any more.....I resent others for expecting me to be that person. How do I stop the cycle? I know "say no" more often, tell them nicely to do it themselves but, yet some how it alway comes back to me...??/??

Holidays are over?

Well my holidays are officially over and I am glad but I am also alittle sad. It seems we rush, rush, rush to get everything done that needs done only to have it last but a fleeting moment. Do we really stop and enjoy those moments or are we just on to whats next?
Life needs to be simpler, more enjoyable so we can soak up those moments that we will never get back. I miss those moments now.
Wow....we should al take time to stop and think about what is happening around us so that we can soak it in.

Friendships

Welcome to my blog...this is where I will share. I guess I'll start out with what's on my mind today. I ran into someone I use to know. We made eye contact, I smiled....I know she recognized me yet she pretended to not know me.
We were best friends for along time, our families were close and we did many things together. I'm not sure if there was one thing I can pin point that happened but, I can say that she and her husband worked in our business for aleast a year. When I hired her I remember saying I was worried it would ruin our friendship and well I guess that is what happened.
I so regret it...I'd much rather have a friend than an employee.
I miss this friendship....friends are hard to come by we should value our friends and remember to never take them for granted.
To all the friends I have had and lost....whether by growing apart or by choice...I am sorry if I have ever hurt you, ignored you or taken you for granted.