It seems like yesterday, I couldn't wait to grow up and be on my own.
Then I went to college and couldn't wait to get a real job. (how stupid was that!!)
Next thing I new I was married and had kids and I couldn't wait for them to get older so I didn't have to change diapers or carry them. Then if they could be old enough to drive so I wouldn't have to drive them everywhere. Then that stopped because all of a sudden they were grown and I wanted them back.
All those times I have said "well when the kids are grown, I'm going to do this or that" that time is here and I don't want to do this or that. And who wanted a real job!!! I can't get away from it. Its so overwhelming at times.
I look in the mirror and I see someone I don't know, where did that young fresh faced girl go to? The one that was pretty? She's old!!! She has wrinkles, patchy skin and she's fat!!! Her arms have brown spots that are suppose to be on her dad and grandma's arms not hers!!! Her joints ache and she's tired.
I finally got horses (after having wanted one since I was 5) and I don't have the time or energy to spend with them.
I don't want to be old, give me back my 25 year old body!!!!
